Letter Three

Oops, I took a LONG vacation from this. So here is the next one anyway

Dear parents (Dave and Grace),

Regarding the fact that now, and growing up, I harbored few feelings of hatred or angst towards you, I feel that this letter may be shorter than other angry teens who are doing this. To all of my friends you are the wonder parents out of dreams, everything that parents should be and nothing that they shouldn't. I would have to say that I agree with their assessment too. Even now i'm looking at a room scattered with pictures of our family and i think its safe to say you two did a real good job raising 4 kids.

I owe probably everything i have to you two. I have always wanted to make you guys proud of me, to do the right thing in your eyes, be the "top" kid in the house. I feel like in many ways I have achieved so much of what i have today because i was always pushed by this need. But it was a need derived from Love not anything else. I wanted you to be proud of me in the way i can be proud of you. Similarly to the way i spend a lot of time boasting about how cool and perfect you are, i wanted to be able to give you that pleasure, of talking about your daughter like she was the next best thing from sliced bread. I hope i have done that for you guys. And hopefully there is more to come.

You have given me unconditional love and i will be spending the rest of my life trying to repay you for that. I don't think that I ever can but i don't think you can blame a girl for trying. When i raise my children I want them to be able to say and feel the way I feel now. They never have to doubt their love for their mother, because they know it is never going away. Rather they will always, as i do, try to find ways of building that love. Similarly for my father, every time i look at a man seriously i size him up to DAVE. You guys have kind of screwed me up the way that now i have REALLY high standards!

Thanks for being too good.

Love always and forever,

Genevieve

Letter Two

Dear Crush,

Ah, you have no clue, obviously that i crushed on you for most of this year. When you walk into the room, or i see you cutting by my heart skips. In fact, I don't think anyone knows i crush on you, which is fun. I've heard a rumor that you like and that'd be awesome, i don't think i would actually date you, but i like the idea of it. When i talk to you i am always laughing or smiling or bantering back with you. I forget the woes of the day and am solely focused on your presence which is... refreshing!

Most of all, after a tough summer of on again off again fights and makeups with another stupid boy, you were the first one that showed i could move on and be safe with the knowledge that i could find some one else if i wanted to. You paid attention to me, and asked how i was, told me i looked good that day when i know i didn't. So thanks. It was the final blow to my fantasy that i needed my ex around. After that i all but stopped thinking and talking to/ about that kid. You have no idea that you did that for me, but you did. I stopped thinking about my mistakes and what could have been and i focused on you. and i loved it.

So thanks for having that stupid laugh and goofy smile, knowing the words to every song (and not being afraid to sing it) for calming me down when i was being stupid and couldn't control my anger and for generally being cool. You rock, and i still crush on you for sure, but like i said, i can't imagine anything would ever come of it. So i can crush without consequence, sounds nice right? it is, i think i'll continue.

I hope people i know don't read this and think they know who it is, cause i highly doubt it is who you think it is lolllllzzzz. (sorry had to add that)

Love (well, Like)

Genevieve

p.s USA USA, forget the Slovenians. USA USA

i hope my crush is as patriotic as i am.

Letter One

To My Best Friend,

I have a lot of friends in this world that could be considered best friends. But there is one who takes the cake (cause we both love cake!) and you know that of course. Luana we've been through years and years of good stuff, fun stuff, lame stuff, and bad stuff. I don't even know what to write here to represent all of the things you have given me and what you will continue to do for me in the years to come. It is this immensely amazing feeling to know that since 8th grade you have been the person i have always counted on and for years to come i can continue to expect that from you. The girl before me wrote "i never felt comfortable asking anyone to be my best friend" and i thought that was crazy, we never ASKED for this to happen it just did. We are both pretty religious so its not totally lame for me to say this; i never asked for you but i have you and it is only by the wisdom of God that you have been sent to me and i know you feel the same.

We have finally reached it to. The scariest moment we have yet to face-separation. Yes, i went to college and left you here, and you went and got married, but this time its going to be different. I'm 20 years old and my best friend, the best friend that everyone has always wanted but i was lucky enough to get is leaving- running away to England! I know that it will be the time of your life and it will change you in wonderful ways, but i am selfishly afraid for it to happen. I know that I vow to see you all the time, but who knows what will come of it, i know that we will never drift apart so i find comfort, but one can never really stop themselves from fearing the worst.

Like i said- i never asked for you to come into my life, but i can't imagine a life without you in it. You have a beacon of love, culture, beauty, confidence, and so much more for me in these past years. I love who i am today and know that couldn't have been if i had never had you. I'm glad your name comes after mine in the Alphabet, fate put us together, but love keeps us this way, i know that no ocean, or mountain, or husband will keep us from finding each other in England. :)

I tell you all the time, but it still never feels like enough- I LOVE YOU.

You have held me while i cried, and cooked me awesome food, been the middie i always passed to in Field Hockey, the rower i always yelled at in crew, the fellow trombonist i always sat in the bleachers went, my study buddy, my tabloid, my suspected lesbian lover, my confidant, my banker, my diary, my favorite book, you have been it all for me since 8th grade! thats crazy. Crazy is the only way i can fathom the depths of this relationship. You are a godsend, i love you, you are a sister to me and i would shed my own blood for you. To know all this and still be able to sit next to you and watch a movie and not bubble over in love for you? well we got class, and we got eloquence, and we know that all those girls out there see us and want to be us.

If you were the sun, I'd gladly be mercury. Tiny and forgotten, but happy to be the planet closest to you, always revolving around you, and wanting nothing but to be left in its continuous orbit of trust.

Love forever,

Genevieve

30 Letters 30 days

So all these movies (Dear John, Letters to Juliet) have come out and they are really good movies. Then i see this post on facebook (of course!) about this girl who i barely even know doing this new activity- writing letters basically for herself but addressed to different people. I decieded that it sounded like something i wanted to do and that could lend to a little self reflection and growth so here i go!

Here is the list of letters i will write. Anyone who has the misfortune of coming onto my blog can read these letters as they come and take the idea and try it yourself so here it is 30 letters; 30 days:

A new 30 day challenge. Letters to:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

ill do most of em.